4.17.2015

An Update

Girls,

I have missed you all so much! First of all, thank you so much for your emails, cards, artwork, words of encouragement and prayers. We are overwhelmed daily by the flat-out-unmeasurable love that has been sent our way. We have lived a lot of life in the past month, and to recount every detail would be impossible, but hopefully this paints a bit of a picture of what we've been doing.

So where are we now?

Since very early March, I've been receiving treatment for my heart from some of the best cardiovascular docs in the nation at an amazing hospital in Missouri. What brought us to that point?

I was getting sicker and sicker back in NWA- and I was in the hospital! After opinions from group-after-group in Arkansas, and getting nothing but a bunch of faces scratches their chins, we knew we had to make other plans - fast. At 9:00 p.m. on March 17, we were transported to the new hospital. 

How are Caroline and Ainsley?

The babies are doing great. Stephen's mom moved into our house and is keeping them there. We wanted as much stability for them as possible while mommy is out the state getting better. Stephen divides his time between being here with me, but also back in NWA with C and A, and where he can be at his desk when needed. He has been crazy strong through this whole mess and I don't deserve him. Not even a little bit.

My mom is down here with me most of the time, too. She hasn't been home since March 17 either and I know she is just exhausted, but won't say a word ; ) I'd be fine (and have asked her to let me) to stay alone, but it's my momma. And we all know a momma's heart when it comes to her baby...even her 30 yr old baby. My dad is here just about every weekend, which is always just good for my soul.

It sucks. It is the hardest thing I've ever done. The first week I was off the ventilator, awake and coherent enough to realize what we were facing, I nearly fell apart. But I also know that it is temporary and that my being here will allow me to be a better, healthier mom when I get home. 

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*As far as the blog goes, it was still be active (I'm not closing up domain juuuuuust yet on this hot mess express, ha!) With that said, I probably really get back to writing until I'm home and settled in. (Hopefully by this summer?) I will try to update from time-to-time, though.

*We've chosen not to share medical details about my specific situation or location info for the hospital where we're staying. I know y'all understand, but didn't want to seem rude if I didn't divulge more. 


48 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness girl! I'm so sorry to hear this is happening to you. I'll be praying for you and your family.

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  2. Praying for you and your family during this time!

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  3. Leslie, I've been worried since I haven't seen you in insta or on the blog, so I'm so happy to hear that you are getting the medical care you need! I'll keep praying for you, and please check in with us whenever you can, as long as your health allows!

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  4. I've been so worried about you, sweet girl. I'm so sorry that you've been so sick. I can't imagine how hard these last few weeks have been for you and your family, but am glad to hear that you are getting the best treatment possible. Hoping that you can get home and back to normal life as soon as possible with your sweet babies. Prayers and love being sent your way!

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  5. I've thought about you so much! Sending many prayers your way.

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  6. Glad to hear an update! Like the other ladies, I have been worried! Your blog is uplifting and I've checked it daily! Sending many prayers your way.

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  7. So happy to read your post. I have been concerned about you. I am sending positive thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

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  8. Praying for you and your family during this time. Speedy recovery and good vibes only.

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  9. I've been think of you a lot the past month and praying for you. I hope that things turn around soon and all is well. Stephen sounds amazing as does your family. God's got you, lady! <3

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  10. Thank you for the update! I have been praying for you! Get better so you can get home to your babies!

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  11. Prayers with you and your family. Get well soon๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒป๐ŸŒน

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  12. Thank you for the update. I have been praying and asking around about you. Please stay strong for those sweet girls, they are lucky to have you as their mom.

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  13. Been thinking about you. Sending healing thoughts and prayers!

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  14. Just thought I would come out of lurking to wish you well. I pray all goes well so you may return home as soon as possible with your precious little ones.

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  15. Leslie,
    You are the first blogger I started following ever and I've been hooked since I read that first entry. I have been wondering what's been going on with you. My hope was that all was well in health land and that you just chose to stop blogging (to my dismay) to spend more time with your sweet babies. It's unfathomable to me that you are in another state than those sweet baby girls. I'm sure your heart is aching as mine is just thinking about your situation. You are amazingly strong and graceful and positive. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless!

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  16. Oh gosh I've been so worried about you. I'm happy to see you felt well enough to give a little update and that you have a wonderful support system, it really does take a village. Blessings and prayers for the doctors to have the wisdom and guidance to treat you fully and get you in the road to a full recovery. Take good care gal and hang in there. God bless. xoxo

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  17. Praying for you Leslie! I was so excited to see an update across my blog feed. I'm sure this is the hardest thing you will ever have to go throw; praying for God's strength and peace to just surround you and hold you tight.

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  18. I cannot begin to imagine how scared you've been through all of this. I've checked often for an updated and prayed often, too. Your quietness on your blog lead me to know something had to be going on. Keeping you in my continued thoughts and prayers for a smooth recovery and gathered strength through the remainder of your journey. Much love to you, Stephen, the girls and your parents.

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  19. So glad to hear from you. I, too, have been checking the blog daily, hoping to hear how you are feeling. Please be well and know we are praying for you and your family.

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  20. Oh, Leslie! I have been hoping and praying for an update from you. I am glad to hear that you are getting the treatment you need, and the most encouraging thing is that HOME is in the future for you. So happy to hear those words. I will continue to pray for you and your family and those sweet baby girls. I can't even imagine what you are going through, but know you have tons of prayers lifting you up. All the blessings. -Kristy

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  21. So happy to see a post from you! I am praying for you and family! Get well soon!

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  22. WOW! Thank you for the update but I sure will be praying more for you AND your family! HugS!

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  23. So sorry to hear! Sending many thoughts and prayers your way for your entire family!

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  24. Hoping for a full recovery...and soon!

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  25. I was wondering how you were doing, sweets. I'm sorry things are so hard for you and my family and myself will have you in our prayers. Get well as soon as you can!

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  26. It sounds like you are in good hands! So glad you are alright! Take care. Miss you! xoxo

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  27. It's wonderful to see an update from you! Prayers that your health continues to improve!

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  28. SO very glad you are on the road to recovery. Will be praying that you continue down that path to a FULL recovery!!

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  29. I'm so sorry you're going through this right now, but you have my prayers for a speedy and complete recovery!!!

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  30. Thank you for checking in as I was the ultimate stalker, but please take care of yourself and don't worry about the blog. I pray everything goes as planned and you continue to get better. So glad to hear the babies are doing well. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  31. Thank you for taking the time to post an update, Leslie. Having gone through my own medical trials over the past year, I can only imagine all you are feeling as I was lucky not to be separated from my family. I am so thankful you are receiving such good care and send many hugs and prayers for your continued recovery. And I hope hope hope you get home to your girls soon! Hugs and prayers for all of you!!!

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  32. I'm so sorry to hear you're dealing with all of this. As a momma to a toddler and new baby (born just a few days before Ainsley) - I can't fathom how difficult it is for you to be away from them. Sending prayers your way!!

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  33. I am so glad you updated the blog, I know many of us were starting to worry about you since it had been so long. I hope you can get back home soon and start feeling better ASAP! Take care of yourself :)

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  34. I'm a fairly new follower and mom of two girls under two. My heart breaks thinking of a mama kept out of state from her two babies, and I'm sending lots of positive thoughts. It will be a great day for all of us when you're healthy and strong and able to be back blogging about fun, frivolous things. In the meantime, your family is in my prayers.

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  35. I simply cannot imagine what you are going through. You are SO strong. Your family is SO strong. You are doing hard things with love. I hope you start to get some relief and healthy news soon. Thinking of you.

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  36. I'm just a follower of your blog, but I was worried! Thank you for the update. Prayers for you and your family!

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  37. I'm in Missouri. Would you happen to be in Columbia? So nice to hear from you, and how scary. So grateful you have such amazing people to help care for you and your family! You'll be able to conquer anything after this!

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  38. Praying for you and your family! Your positive attitude is AMAZING and inspiring.

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  39. I am so so sorry you are having to go through this! I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult season of life.

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  40. It was so nice to hear an update from you! I am sending lots of warm wishes for a speedy recovery! Looking forward to another update when you can. Best wishes and good luck.

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  41. Oh Leslie, I'm so sorry. I have no idea how I missed what was happening but please know you are in my thoughts and prayers right now and into the future. Thank you for sharing an update. I totally understand you not divulging more. Sending lots of love and many, many prayers to you and your family.

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  42. Sending many prayers for you and your sweet family. Thank you for sharing an update. I have been worried about you. Praying for a fast recovery.

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  43. It's funny...reading some blogs, you start to feel like you "know" the person that's writing, and you're touched by what they share. And, you start to really care. That's how your blog is...your writing is soo good, and touching. Here's sending you good thoughts, hugs - and I wish I could send more - but, sending you all the best. Hope you're home and healthy soon!

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  44. get well soon! thinking of you and your family!!

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  45. I just wanted to pop in to say I've been thinking about you often. I say a little prayer for you in my closet most mornings, because that is when I'm thinking, "What would Leslie wear?" You're a trooper, lady, and I hope it feels incredible to know so many strangers out there are sending up prayers. Be well.

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